True love has been on my heart this whole month. After a deep conversation with a friend of mine, I looked in the mirror and the question, “Maybe you have never had love?” popped into my head. Great, I laugh anyway, knowing my ego is pecking at me.
True love: really. What does that cover? I wanted to take a deeper look because one, the question came up when I looked in the rear view mirror as I caught my reflection. And two, another friend of mine sat with me just yesterday and told me how intimacy is downright scary for her.
Wow. Love came up so much for me this month, even without researching what I wanted to highlight in my articles. For me, relationships trend like fashion. If it’s not my style, I don’t pay much attention to it.
Yet: I happen to be in a relationship, and in my last article, “Are you in a mechanical relationship?”, I got real about how marriage and long term relationships mean nothing if there isn’t any relating going on. I had to look at my own lack and resentment during my now, ten year relationship.
Things ARE disconnected, and we choose to cope with our situation in whatever way we can keep it together. But here’s the deal: couples are not feeling togetherness.
So what is it about the idea of true love that made me question if I even had it? Have I even had an experience of true love? I think so: that is my honest answer.
When I meditated about the definition and value of love in my life, I came to the memory of knowing love for the first time. I was young, just eighteen.
My willing and open heart gave way to someone who met me where and when I wanted to be needed.
True love to me now is a knowing that I believe I have always known, maybe not in this lifetime but I do know it. For some reason I hold a memory and experience of complete surrender to another. I believe and know that trust is the glue of commitment, and that intimacy without physical touch or sex is the deepest and most pleasurable connection.
Love on a Soul level is not experienced by many of us simply because many of us are not in touch with our Soul. However, sometimes we just know what we know, and in the knowing opens the pathway to actualizing the experience we have had before. Only it is happening now, in a very familiar way and we recognize the feeling.
So - LOVE may be here for you now and you will decide if you will allow its truth to persevere.
Or – LOVE MAY NOT and you know - in the most sincere part of you – what you truly want for yourself, and if you believe it is yours to have.
You choose. You always choose.